"Our limitations and successes will be based, most often,
on our own expectations for ourselves."
Thank god the holidays are over… I could not deal with the never-ending supply of gift baskets and chocolaty goodness visually berating me for not indulging from our office kitchen. I have put on *ahem* 15 pounds in the last two months. Willpower? What? Sigh…
I know some of you don’t understand my issue with my weight and are constantly rolling your eyes if I mention something about it, but it’s something I have always struggled with. And as someone who has lost 110 pounds [that’s like Victoria Beckham and one of her kids!] I know how easy it is to get to my point of ‘no return’. When I was younger I struggled so much with my self-image, that it consumed me. Looking back, I realize how freaking stupid I was and that it was all in my head… and years from now I will be looking back on right now, doing the same thing. I struggled with eating disorders on both sides of the scale until I was 26. Right now, it’s more of a dull nag when I pick up a donut or go back for my 6th cup of coffee filled with glorious amounts of cream and sugar. It’s taken me a long time to get to the point of being able to look in the mirror and not cringe at the sight of what I liked to refer to as “my fat ass”.
With all that said, one of my New Years Resolutions is to do more, physically, run - be it that half marathon or a 5k … and get into the Scorpion pose. I will baby!! I will!
I know some of you don’t understand my issue with my weight and are constantly rolling your eyes if I mention something about it, but it’s something I have always struggled with. And as someone who has lost 110 pounds [that’s like Victoria Beckham and one of her kids!] I know how easy it is to get to my point of ‘no return’. When I was younger I struggled so much with my self-image, that it consumed me. Looking back, I realize how freaking stupid I was and that it was all in my head… and years from now I will be looking back on right now, doing the same thing. I struggled with eating disorders on both sides of the scale until I was 26. Right now, it’s more of a dull nag when I pick up a donut or go back for my 6th cup of coffee filled with glorious amounts of cream and sugar. It’s taken me a long time to get to the point of being able to look in the mirror and not cringe at the sight of what I liked to refer to as “my fat ass”.
With all that said, one of my New Years Resolutions is to do more, physically, run - be it that half marathon or a 5k … and get into the Scorpion pose. I will baby!! I will!
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